Having Two Littles & A Tayt Update

Having two (almost) under two was quite a juggle at first (did I already mention that?) I was overwhelmed with the constant needing of my attention, energy and breast. But, as most things go, it got easier with time. We all fell into a routine and things are much more enjoyable now. Trenton has been so precious to watch as he worries and takes care of 'his baby'. He is very loving, attentive and gentle with her.. for the most part. When he is rough it is because he doesn't know his own strength. He now understands and is fine with it when I say, "In a minute, I have to take care of your sister" his usual response is "ohh okkkayyyy momma". For a two year old, patience is tough but he is doing a great job adjusting. At first our nap schedules were way out of whack (did i already mention that too? did you know that mommy brain is a real thing?), but now they both will nap for about 2-3 hours in the afternoons which is MY TIME. I need to get one of those mugs (or tattoos.. kidding) that say I LOVE NAP TIME. I am usually cleaning, ironing, gardening or prepping for dinner but I can sometimes sneak in 30 minutes of crafting, decorating, nails or sitting and watching the cooking channel. In order to get that glorious time, we try to get out and run around in the mornings everyday to wear-out Trenton enough to sleep and when they get up there's only a short time for play then we are into the night time routine (baths, making dinner etc.) before Dada gets home. I try to have something scheduled for the mornings each day whether its a play-date, going to pretend city, park, beach or errands. We have to do something to get out, run Trenton and get fresh air. I am pretty much doing exactly what I thought I would be doing with two littles...strapping her on and going. We still do the same activities centered around Trenton just with one more mouth to remember to feed, one more diaper to change, one more baby to buckle in and one more blanket(ni-night)/bikini(BB as Trenton calls it) to remember. There's obviously a lot more 'one more' things to do and remember but you get the idea. Also, it is tough for me to get myself ready, Trenton and Tayt ready, the van packed and out the door before 10 am now. The minivan has made my life a lot easier and organized. I always have everything I need because I can fit it ALL. I LOVE IT, should have never fought it. Anyways, the days are very busy and go quickly but I wouldn't have it any other way. When people ask me what I do everyday since I stay home, it's hard to respond. I have talked to many other friends who stay home and they all feel the same way. I have started just saying that it is like being on a hamster wheel... constantly cleaning up after one, changing one, feeding one, entertaining one or attending to one. It never stops... even when Shaun gets home, he just jumps on the wheel with me and its like that all day and night, everyday.  It makes sense to me but people without kids cannot fully comprehend what it feels like to be on a hamster wheel of that sort, nor would they probably want to. It actually sounds more like torture, until you have children of your own and know that kind of love that will make you jump on a hamster wheel and do anything and everything for them 24/7. Oh well, they will know one day. 

Quick bit on Trenton (2yrs3mos).. He is a very busy boy, but that's old news for anyone who knows him. His vocabulary impresses me daily and his voice melts my heart. He has a HUGE heart like his Shaun, and Shaun's Dad. He is the sweetest cuddle bug and the most rambunctious boy all in one. He is a handful and a pleasure all at the same time. I need time away to breathe but I can't breathe when i'm away from him. He says "miss you mamma" when i come home or just when i get out of the shower. Everything  becomes a gun, sword or something to be saved by 'Super Trenton'. He gets sad when his Dad leaves each morning for work and says, "Bye momma, work now" as he tries to get in Shaun's car with him. He doesn't understand why he can't go to this thing called work with him and why Shaun has to everyday. He has a HUGE personality and hilarious facial features. He is so TWO... emotionally, socially, mentally and physically. It is a tough age to watch and parent because he understands so much and can communicate but also gets very frustrated and struggles to control his emotions when he doesn't understand something. He is my best friend. 

Tayt update...finally. Sorry for the lag on this one. She is almost three months already. Poor lil gal has had colds, thrush and has now been diagnosed with acid reflux She was tough at first because she was so uncomfortable after every feeding.. arching her back, crying, gassy and hard to soothe. It was almost every couple of hours. There was a time I called Shaun and told him to come home because I was so overwhelmed with not being able to help her and take care of Trenton's needs at the same time. Since being on medicine for her acid reflux things are much better which is great news. However, she has not gained weight and the doc is worried about my milk/her feeding etc. I know she is not starving and is happy and content most of the day. She also has a little bit of the 'witching hour' thing where she is more fussy in the evenings but not too bad. She really just loves to be held, in a football hold preferably. She also loves to suck on her binki or her hand. She has been more work, or should I say has had more 'issues' than Trenton did in her first few months of life which has made it a little more challenging but overall not a hard baby by any means. She is a great sleeper thus far, most nights only wakes to feed once or twice. I can put her in her bassinet wide awake and she will fall asleep on her own without me rocking her for hours. She also loves the baby carriers, AMEN. She falls asleep instantly when I get her strapped on me, just like her brother did but it is even more helpful this time around to have my hands. She smiles so big that it makes everyone that sees her smile. She stares in my eyes as though she knows me. I am loving having a baby again...I love her tiny hands that she can't control but thinks are so interesting, her little toes that spread when she gets excited, her squishy legs that she pushes and jumps with as though she wants to get up and run, her soft skin and that smell... oh my gosh that baby smell. Makes my mom hormones go wild. Oxitocin is one hell of a drug :) I love her immensely but still don't feel like I know her. Its an incredible bond to have with someone you don't know. I remind myself to enjoy these special 'baby moments' in case she is our last (still on the fence) but part of me wants a glimpse into the future to see her little toddler personality and see who she is. Now that I know how amazing it is to have a little person that has 'its' own personality, can talk to me and walk with me etc. I almost want to jump there but I also know how quickly we will 'jump' there so I try to not think that way. Even though I don't know her yet I know that she will be my best friend for life and I am over the moon about that :) The perks of having a girl! 

I think that's all the update for now... that is life in a nutshell at this moment. Thanks as always for reading and going on this journey with us as we learn and grow our family. I don't know what I would do without my family and friends.. the saying is SO true, "It takes a village". So, thank you for being apart of that village for our family. 

God Bless, 

Momma T

PS. I've been a bad second time mom and really haven't taken many pictures of Tayt. I will post some asap, i'm making it a priority.