It will be interesting to see how it all goes down and when it does. As it is, if she is a week late like Trenton was, she will be born exactly on Trenton's bday. If not, they should be just days apart. Not sure what that will mean for Trenton's second birthday, it could very well be spent eating ice-cream in the hospital. The plan is to leave Trenton with my parents overnight and only stay in the hospital one night if all goes well and everyone is healthy like last time. It will be really hard leaving Trenton and having all of us be somewhere else without him. I am already not looking forward to that part.
It makes me a little sad to think about the days of just Trenton and I hanging and playing are numbered. I hope I can always remember this special time I have had just me and my little boyfriend. It will just get better, i know, but will forever be different. I have already been feeling guilty for being so tired and not giving him the energy and attention that I used to but I just physically can't. It is probably a good transition for him to get used to since he has no idea what is about to hit him and all the changes our routine is going to go through. He is so used to having us at his beckon call and having everything go his way, in the same order everyday that little Tayt is really going to rock his world. I guess I went through it and don't remember so it couldn't have been that horrible but as a mommy I want to give both my babies my all, at all times, and I just won't be able to which will be a transition for me as well.
It will be the most incredible feeling to see my babies interact, learn, grow and bond together. I just cannot wait for them to have a relationship and a playmate for life. Furthermore, I am more than excited to see how this little girl morphs Shaun. He is already such an incredible, loving father and loves his son beyond anything in our world but it will be so neat to see him form a bond with our baby girl. It will be equally as special and strong but different.. and I can't wait for that. He is going to LOVE it. And, she is going to have him wrapped so tightly around her finger, it will be so sweet to watch.
I have been pinching myself and counting my blessing daily... i just never knew life could be this good. On my birthday this year (the big 27!) i said that I can honestly say this year i have everything that i have ever wanted, dreamed of and more. Having all of my life dreams come true at 27 is a pretty big accomplishment to me and I am so content at where I am in life and who i have become. I know so much good is yet to come and life is going to even get so much better with our little girl and our future as a family but right now, in this moment, I am SO happy and I want to live in this moment and remember this feeling forever. I wish I could bottle it up and visit it whenever I needed a reminder. All that said, there are hard days and financially its tough some months but I wouldn't trade any of it. We are so blessed.
I just painted a big painting in our living room that says "When you love what you have, you have everything you need" and that couldn't be more true of how I feel right now in my life. We are so rich with love and life, how could we ever want anything more! All the money couldn't get us what we have and make us feel how happy we are right now and that's a great feeling.
CHANGING STATION....
So my solution was to create a little station in Tayt and Trenton's closet so this is the progress.. we will see how it actually works for us daily as we use it but i think it should do the trick!
...and this is just a funny picture that Shaun obviously took.. of me in awe of how large my belly looked when I caught a glimpse in the mirror and Trenton dancing nakey in the mirror on his bed after bathtime. He is ever so tastefully covered up though don't you think? ha!
I hope this post finds you all well and just as happy in your lives, no matter which path you are on today.
Hugs,
(big) Momma T
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